Wednesday, 24 June 2009

Manali (Varshisht) 7th - 16th June














Sun 7th June - Vershist, Malani

Manali (pop 4400, elevation 2050m) According to legend, Manu, the Hindi equivalent of Noah, alighted his boat here to re-create human life after floods destroyed the world. Modern Manali is crammed with concrete hotels and based around one street, the mall, a continuation of the highway that runs into town. Two roads run north of Manali along the Beas river - one to Old Manali a hippie travellers hub on the West Bank and one to Vershsit a nearby village where we stayed, and the Rhoang La on the East bank. (Lonely planet)

Vashisht, a nearby and more locally visted village where we stayed was a more peaceful location and had a lot more character, in fact one of my favourite places in India so far. It was a 50 ruppee rickshaw ride from Manali or a nice 30 min walk.

Significant people: A great crowd of 6 hung out together (Anne who I had been travelling with since Udaipur, Israeli Shy, English Neil, and French couple Audrey and Cederic) enjoying the natural hot springs, canyoning, rock climbing, white water rafting, and a 2 day motorbike trip to the Rhotang Pass. not to mention late night oscar-winning movies and chilling in our favourute haunt Rainbow cafe. We ended up staying 9 nights before leaving for Leh but sadly without Neil who had to catch a flight home. I extended mine. Again ;) The only downer was the rain, but was normally predictable early pm for an hour or two and then clearing up again.

Accomodation: 200 ruppees for room with balcony on top floor (lower was 150) Also had great food (try the continental breakfast for 100 ruppees!) and free cold water from the springs. No hot shower, but could collect water from the hot springs for a bucket bath. Problem with flies but in the heart of the action, and no steep steps to climb!

Activities: Himilayan extreme centre. Ran by Fred from France who gave us 20% discount because two of our guys were French but also we made grop bookings and were regular customers!

Internet: Below raindbow cafe, 40 ruppees and hour. No wireless anywhere but did notice one place in Old Manali, more expensive food though.

Well after a predictably bumpy and uncomfortable journey with no sleep! - we arrived at 4.30am, an hour an a half early - unheard of in India! - because the bloody nutty driver wanted to get the journey over and done with which conributed to the significant bumps and lurches that it would not be an exxageration to say resembled an alton towers ride...

We were ripped off by a rickshaw paying 90 ruppes for an otherwise 40 or 50 ruppee journey but at that time in morning, tired and cold and hungry you havnt got much bartering power! Fortunately one of the guest houses opened their kitchen and we ordered a very early breakfast. The roomw were not great for the price, so we spent a significant amount of time trying to find somewhere for 4 people - Neil Shy Anee and I were getting on well and thought it would be nice to stay near each other. Many places were ver reasonable cost (200 ruppees) but were full. Eventually we settled on two different places as nowhere had 3 rooms free especially so early and before check out time. While Anne and I were waiting for our room to be cleaned, I made a visit to the ladies hot springs, less than 10 metres away through the entrance to the temple and enclosed by a high brick wall away from the prying eyes of India men! I absolutely loved the experience. It was quite busy, with ladies in various states of undress either in the plunge pool or squatting or sitting in the running taps. It felt so good to be clean! Anne and I got a couple of hours kip before meeting everone for lunch at Rainbow cafe where we had been warned had great food but miserable service! I ate a Nepali thai (60 ruppee) and leon drink (30 ruppee) and experieced my first 'hello to the queen' with Neil which basically is biscuit and ice cream and sauce and banana TWAS DELICIOUS!

We took a wander to Manali and then Old Manali. Despite the tranquil setting and the beautiful river and mountains, the drivers are really manic and it is extremely stressful hearing beeping almost incessantly and some cars or trucks drive along the road keeping their hands holding their horn in complete faith anything in the way, including us, will soon get out of the way! One drove by so close it clipped Annes hand and would have made contact with me if her scream hadnt alerted my attention to it. The thing is, the beeping is really unnecessary thats whats s annoying. Its just the cultre you beep at anything you see! Im not normally a violent person but really it made me want to punch something!

We ended up in a lovely chilled cafe by the river and a large weeping willow where we had some beers and played arsehole, shithead and uno, and learnt backgammon. It was a good crowd and Im looking forward to hanging out with them more. We walked back into Manali before overcrowding into a taxi to Vershist! I collected water from the hot springs (felt very authentic!) and had a nice buucket bath which really made me feel warm which was amazing as I had been feeling cold all evening.

Vershist is a lovely place, I absolutely love the hot springs, the cows, the ruralness, the chilled vibe and of course the crowd I am hanging out with. Im excited about the sports we have planned just worried about being cold here...Im not at all equipped with the clothes I have. Leh will be even worse!!!

Thought for the day: If you are rich, you have so very much time to feed your neurosis and worry about whether or not you are happy. The poor have many more real problems but they do not have the luxury of being neurotic. They are too busy working for what they will eat today. p 45 City of Joy

Monday 8th June - Waterfalls

I dragged myself out of bed 10ish after several hours of sleep. I went to bed earlier than everyone else yesterday and dropped off while listening to mu music. I was woken by some commotion going on with some french guy that lasted about an hour, he was getting aggressive and swearing - well some things you can just tell even if they are in a foreign language!! There are a couple of didgy characters in a room at the end of our balcony who I am slightly wary of, and hence I am keeping my laptop out of view. I think also there is a big drugs culture here I ve heard about the happy shakes and such like but everywhere you go people are offering you drugs. It seems that being a westerner and drug user go hand in hand although it is not uncommon to see the Indian guys rolling their own spliffs.

I had put so many clothes on I was warm enough, thank goodness and until 7 am when Hindi music started blarring, I had quite a good night. I ordered a nice english breakfast with apple juice and coffee (100 ruppee) and then Anna and I headed down to the hot springs. It was muahc emptier than when I had gone yesterday at a slightly earlier time. It was an abssolute joy getting clean and washing hair, squatting at one of the four running taps. There were two little Indian kids there and we had fun splashing each other and helping wash each other. There's a real feeling of community in this hot spring, women coming together away from the mens gazes (it was surrounded by high brick walls) to bathe under the hot sun. Being a person who loves saunas and steam rooms and such health spa settings, it has been one of my favourite events in India so far, and being mostly visited by locals, a truly authentic experience. The only thing I was suprised at in an otherwise modest country, is how the women bathe topless and often only in their pants. One olf lady was naked, and as she bent over after ascending the steps, a small shild looked up at a suprising view, and we exchanged a look and a giggle, some things transcend the language barrier...!

I am having such a good time and am really happy with the crowd I am hanging out with they are all lovely genuine people and we are going rafting tomorrow! The fench guy met a guy in a shop from the same ski resort as him in France (Val D'Isere) and he's given us a dicount of 600 to 350 if there is a group of 6. Bring it on!!!!

The only problem is I still feel really tired but I have this theroy that exercise will sort it out.

Well I was feeling very lethargic, but once we had embarked on our walk, armed wiith a borrowed fleece! - I had a fantastic time. Anne decided to stay behing so the 5 of us trekked to a waterfall, but all the way were gorgeous views and I excercised my gluteous maximus, and we amused ourselves by learning words of each others languages - although thank good ness Anne wasnt there as I would have got too confused with German thrown into the mix! I think I was the main source of entertainment especially to Shy, the Israeli guy as every time I opened my mouth I attempted to communicate in French, as the French couple were very generous and willing to aid my learning process! I feel I need to stretch my mind as travelling is more about experietial learning not sort of intelectual learning, and I love languages, and the idea of being able to speak something other than English. I just wish I had paid more attention at school as I did French for 5 years for goodness sakes! I never saw the need, and regret it now but its actually amazing how many words I have pulled out of the deepest darkest recesses of my memory... it was quite fun. I even learned 1-10 in Aramaic as Shy is Israeli. Shy was a legend as once we had found the source of the waterfall and Neil had attempted to swim but then wimped out! - he had a camping stove and we took shelter under a huge rock slab and had a couple of cups of Chai. It was a fantastic afternoon and we were discussing going on a 2 or 3 day trek just off our own backs, finding villages to sleep in along the way. What a great crowd. Off to watch The English Patient now....

Wow that was a good film and no hapy ending either which I'm not sure how I feel about! I left after it finished at 10pm to have my hot springs bucket bath and some 'me' time where I get to reflect on the day and play my worship songs and have a pray with no distractions. I love being with a crowd but I do need these moments of breaks. I am having a wicked time but in this milder climate that Im not equipped for I am still feeling run down with a slight cold or something, and got a sore throat which I have ot make sure doesnt develop as were planning doing a few more active things! And thats where I come into my own! I think tomorrow I will go online and ring my family and download more photos. I am so grateful for this laptop. Life is just so good at the moment. I never want this to end. I think of England and it will all be waiting for me when I decide to return. There are things in the summer I would like ot be back for, including my birthday and famil get together and rempstone and st georges house but for goodness sake im doing somerhing people either dfont have the chance or priority to do and I shoul dmake the most of it. There are so many places I want to travel to. It makes me si happy to experience alternative realities and I have decided if that means I go without the other things that people aspire to in England then so be it. I am meeting people who make a lifetimes habit of travelling. They work for several months of the year and then travel, What a life. Why shouldnt I do the same? The only thing is I need to earn more money in those months to be able to do that. Im gonna write a list of my short to medium term goals. And theyrre gonna apply whether I stay in India or go home but for some reason India gives me more focus away from distractions.

'Surely goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life. and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.' - Psalm 23.

Best thing: Hot springs, walk to waterfall, film.
Worst thing: Sore throat.

9th June - White water rafting day!

Well, Anna's alarm went off at 7am but the Hindi music was already in full swing!! We had a nice coffe in Cederic and Andreas hotel before unsuccesfully traipsing around Malani for motorbikes - either they couldnt be bothered or wernt open yet so we ended up catching the bus to Kullu (30 ruppees, 1 1/2 hours) and then another to Brahamin? 5 ruppess, 25 minutes. After the smallest burger in the world for 20 ruppees we excitedly squeezed into our westsuits with the exception of the guys who thought they would be macho! The water was absolutely freezinf but it was such fun and even so when one got the opportunitty to scream when we got drenched with the spray in the rapids! The guy sort of guided teh whole expedition, and 4 of us also paddled to his instruction. I thought it would be a little more led by the group, but Anne and I are planning on doing more in Richikech anyway which is supposed to be better. We rafted for about 1 1/2 hours down 14 Kilometres. We were all sad when it was over, but relieved we hadn't capsized as the water must have been close to freezing. The guys actually tried to swim in a quiet spot but stayed in all of 2 seconds before bashfully returning to the raft! Coming home, we broke for lunch in Kullu where I had a gorgeous Thali for 50 ruppees even though it was a rather dirty restatnat! We nearly got away with riding on the roof of the bus on the way home but were summoned down for 3 kilometres while the 'police' may be watching. But as we were then packed like sardines in the interior of the bus, there wasnt much chance to return to our superior seats once the obligatory distance had elapsed. So happy to be with a really good group who arnt pot heads either.

10th June - Rock climbing day!

I am so glad I stayed in last night I really just enjoyed being cozy in my bed and I listened to sermon I had on my computer which was good. I had a gorgeous breakfast at my guest house for 100 ruppees before meeting the others at Himilan Extreme sports for rock climbing. What an awesome day! My arms gave out on me true to form, but I made it up the 5 paths, not bad for 550 ruppees. The sun was shining, the whole group was there, we views of the mountians, the instructor was good fun (although I dont think health and safety would approve of the amount of spliffs he smoked!!) and generally I felt good after the first proper nights sleep in a loong looong time. Actaully my hands and arms being so weak had a positive effect, as it forced me to rely more and trust my legs and feet. Its amazing on what tiny bits of rock you can grip and give all your weight to. After rock climbing we had a beer and a spicy biriyani lunch (95 ruppee) at the french couples hotel, and I even watched an episode of Ugly Betty! Its funny weather here, its gorgeous in the mornings but then always rains in the afternoon for an hour or so and then clears up again. I think I am adjusting more to the cold as last night I wore less clothes to bed and my sore throat wasnt as bad. I bravely went on a 'run' with Shy - well just a little over 15 minutes but along the river and at a fair pace and half of it was uphill so not bad considering how long its been since ive worked out! We ended up on the side of the river and many locals witnessed our stretching and yoga and strange things I was teaching Shy from drama school and 4 men approached us to have photos taken but we didnt really appreciate it in our sweaty state and so shooed them away when they didnt easily take no for an answer. It was a strange feeling going got a run here though as its not a common sight and my clothes - leggins and a vest top - probably seem pornographic to them!

Well that made me feel a lot better doing my second lot of excercise of the day and I felt I deserved my washing in the hot springs, which his still one of my favourite experiences in India. I went back to the room to chill before heading out to dinner with everyone bar anne who had thrown up on her shopping mission in Manali and was still feeling unwell. Neil and I shared a BBQ trout in ? which was rather nice and I had a banana lassi, the first for a while. Total 100 ruppee plus chilling in 10 ruppess for garlic naan!

I was going to go to the internet earlier but ended up chilling and then chatting to anne instead. Its amazing how similar we are its so cool were travelling together. Im really happy at the moment and thank god for this.

Best thing: Rock climbing.
Worst thing: Throwing up in the night!

Thursday 11th June

Well if only my feel good feeling from yesterday had lasted...instead I was awake most of the night feeling sick and then when I did eventually have to make a run for it it was quite violent. Most of the night I was also tortured by 4 annoying flies and impressive wafts from Annes side of the bed providing evidence her tummy was also still bad! But I supposed I cant complain its only the second time in 4 months. The next morning we walked in our pj's down the hill to meet the gang and they were aggreeable to go canyoning tomorrow instead which the shop were also cool about as there was no way we were up to it and also Neil was in bed having had a bad tummy yesterday. Whats going on?! Is it food, is it a bug, is it the hot springs? Anne and I basically went back to bed for the rest of the morning and I felt so crap I didnt even want to read or catch up on my blog or even listen to music. Seems like such a waste of a day. I eventually dragged myself to the internet cafe where the electricity cut out after half an hour so still no Pushkar photos. Is very frustrating how hard it is to upload photos but its important to me as its a back up if my comp gets broken or ncked and its also a way for my family and friends to keep up with what Im doing. I got an email from Stew which I was pleased about after repeated efforts to get hold of him. Every time I check my facebook and see messages from my family asking when Im back it makes me homesick and I don't know what to do again. I'm having such a good time but it can't last forever. I just hope in the next few days it will be clear what the best thing to do is. I could still get my flight on the 21st June but thats only 10 days away and I really want to see Agra and Varanasi and spend some time in Delhi and see Calcutta and now the ideas in my head I really want to do a yoga course in Richikesh. I dont want to overdo it though where I'm not enjoying it anymore. As with everything in life, you've got to know when to stop and I'm not so good at that! Ive already been away 4 months which is quite a significant time. Im thinking of making it a round 6 then I still get to spend some of the summer in Cirencester and maybe pick up some shifts at Mencap so my training wont be wasted (after 6 months you have to do your entire induction again.)

Im sitting in Rainbow with Neil and Anne all of us ill, with no erergy, and feeling sorry for ourselves! But hey at least there is a feeling of solidarity!! If one has to be ill, it may as well be with gorgeous views, chilled music, cheap food, and good company!

Well, I mananged a good couple of hours in another internet cafe (below rainbow cafe) and am quite pleased I am catching up with my backlog and spoke to my Granma and Uncle Jack although not for as long as I would have liked. Ended up finishing just in time to meet Neil at 7pm to watch 'Into the Wild.' It was quite interesting how the guy left his material life with his family problems to 'find himself' often isolated by choice and revelling in nature, to finally die with the realisation scratched into his log, that 'happiness is only real when it is shared.' Its kind of sad he dies without being reuinuted with his family but good that he had this revelation before it was too late. Or maybe it was too late. Anyway. The past two films I have watched have not had happy endings and Im kinda glad, because generally life isnt like hollywood movies and then we get all dissapointed when we expect it to be. Im learning to be content in all circumstances like Paul talks about and this makes me much more even and level as I am not so effected by those circumstances. Even though it is not every nice I have not even minded being ill. Its an intesting journey but probably a lifelong one. I think being in a place like India where peoples expectations are so much less and people are happy despite having so many more real problems helps.

Ive managed to keep down the banana and nutella pancake I ate for lunch (45 ruppees) and also the veg sandwich with chips and salad I had for dinner (50 ruppees) Hope I sleep tonight. Anne's still throwing up and I'm still being irritated by all the bloody flies that I swear are only buzzing around to torment me and take delight in raising my blood pressure levels by resting on my nose, my face, and then buzzing off as I reach for my bat. ! It was quite amusing trying to swat them all with our electronic bat inherited from the couple next door...reminds me of Milan when that bat was flying round in circles in our room and the other girls were screaming and in hysterics and I was trying to knock it out with the handle of a broom...

Didnt make it to the hot springs today as the smell makes me nauseous feeling as I am. But at least I had a bucket bath and am clean after feeling a bit skanky being in my pjs all day!! Hope I feel well enough to go canyoning tomorrow.

Thought for the day: Happiness is only real when it is shared. - Into the Wild

Fri 12th June

Well after our mass murdering l spree last night (of the flies!) and still feeling sick tummy still making me aware of its existance, I actually slept very well. Woke up feeling significantly better and after a nice milk coffee (15 ruppess) and pastry from the bakery (30 ruppees) set off to meet others buying some yaks cheese, moutain cows cheese and mangos along the way (200 ruppees which I split with Neil) for our planned picnic lunch between canyoning sessions! Everyone was bringing some contribution. Anne decided to come even though she was continuing to not keep any food down, and Neil as well as myself were also feeling a bit shaky but we ended up having a fantastic day. We trekked up the mountains, squeezing into extremely tight fitting dry suits along the way which provided some mass entertainment as they were so tight it took half an hour to squeeze into them with many an exclamation. Basically, Canyoning (we paid 720 ruppee reduced from 900) requires dry suits (the water is really very cold here!), good footwear, harness, helmet, and ropes and attachments. You get attached to a rope which is fed down the length of the 'canyon' / waterfall but as these in part resemble slides Im not quite sure how to best describe it) and lean back and either abseil down, or turn and plonk on your backside and slide - as fast as possible! Your descent is self-controlled with a biley device, and you have have icy water spraying in your face the whole time, sometimes blinding you or knocking you over! Also there is more resistance in the biley device so you have to work your arms hard to get the speed. Its the first time I have done Canyoning and I do enjoy it and was pleasantly suprised I wasn't too cold as I love watersports but sometimes have a mixed overall experience due to getting so miserably cold.

When we got back we sat and chatted with the guys at Himilayan extreme sports and had a chai. They have 2 gorgeous dogs which we all made a big fuss of and as a group of europeans attracted some attention from passing Indians. The guy who owns the shop, (French) Fred, came here his first time intending to stay 1 week and stayed 3, then came back another time intending to stay one month and stayed 3. So then he admitted defeat and just moved here!

We have decided to do 2 day motorbike group trip to the Leu valley and stay the night, returning the next day. The french couple have extended their time here for it and I can see Anne and I staying longer afterwards as I would like to do a proper trek, some mountain biking, more rock climbing, zorbing, and a bigger canyoning trip. Its funny I can do an extreme sport every day here for the same daily budget as travelling in south east asia. It's crazy! But a great holiday amongst the travelling and is so good to have a good group to do it with, Cederick the french guy is a bit like me and wants to do everything...but good to have another proactive person like that to instigate the activities. Bring on another great day!!

Psalm 148 More of you and less of me.

Sat & Sun 13th and 14th - Motorbike trip to Rhotang Pass.

We traipsed about in the morning trying to find 4 motorbikes, which for the second time we realised is not such an easy task in India! Cederic and Audrey shared, me and Anne shared, but as Shy and Neil hadnt done it before they didnt feel comfortable either driving or being a passenger. Eventually, we found a place in Old Manali that had the desired machines, and we managed to get 1 1/2 day rate (at 500 ruppees a day) which most places didnt do, so after some lunch we set off via zorbing. Even though I have done quite a lot of scootering about south east asia, I found motorbikes quite hard to pick up at first although I knew once we got going it would be fine as it was hard to practice in a confined space. The initial and biggest problem was getting starting on very steep slopes and trying to avoid the landrovers and rickshaws that come hurtling along the narrow lanes just outside the bike shop. Cederic suggested to me than an Enfield would be better at getting up the moutain slopes with 2 passengers, and so I tried a bulky one with metal cages either side for carrying gear, but the sheer weight of it was too much for me to manoever and when not in motion, I actually toppled over. Some guy helped me get it back on its feet and rode it up the steep hill for me as I couldnt get the clutch control to start in on the slope. I tried a Pulsar which was much better and after stalling a few times, I felt like an old pro. Stalling was probably good because it made me practice my starts a lot! By the end of the day my left thigh muscle was pretty knackered!

Zorbing (about 14k from Manali) was absolutely hilarious and well worth the 3k detour. You basically get strapped like a baby into a harness inside a giant inflatable ball (getting in an out is an event in itself!) which rolled down a hill aided by the efforts of men pushing and jogging alongside it. Anne and I literally went head over heels and as we laughed and screamed at each other, it did occur to me how awful it would be if one of us was sick as it would go straight into the other persons face!! Nice thought;) Anyway...it really was great fun and worth the 200 ruppees we had got as a special deal by Cederic making a bet, and I dont think we could have gone much faster as we were already almost bouncing!! Result. The whole area was obviously set up for such sports, as there was also paragliding and pony trekking available. I want to do both, but there was no time today as the rest of the group was waiting for us and time was ticking on.

The drive became progressively more challenging as we started climbing and as it got darker. The roads are very rough with many many potholes and loose rocks and little streams / waterfalls you have to drive through. It was quite slow going at first as Shy and Neil had not biked before and as it got darker Anne and I went on ahead to get somewhere warm as I was losing feeling in my fingers which I needed for clutch and break control! - and also, more significantly,. as it approached dark, I attempted to put on my lights to find...I didn't have any! The bikes were basically heaps of junk, Cederics enfield was the closest to a fully functioning bike and still lacked a back light. Driving in India is not the safest at the best of times so it was about as difficult conditions as you can get really. You use your horn even more so than in South East Asia, and trust me that is a lot! You also get beeped a lot making you jump out of your skin, and have traffic overtaking you in close proximity. There is also a fair amount of dodging going on in the attempts to overtake the slower vehicles or get ahead of the queues which the Rhoang Pass has a reputation for. There were sheer drops down into the valley. In the absence of any lights in the pitch dark, I ended up choosing the lesser of two evils and following 2 pollution-exuding lorries up the mountain which also had the bonus of using the protection of their bulk from oncoming traffic.

Arriving at the village, we really hoped there was somewhere for the 6 of us to sleep as it was freezing. We had a Chai but couldnt really get warm as we were looking out for others in case they drived past. We met a guy who fair play to him was cycling the 457 kilometres to Leh. Bearing in mind on a motorbike its 5 days, goodness knows how long its gonna take him! Although to be fair, with the amount of queues, the speed difference is not as signicant as it would be in other contexts. But bloomin hard work. Anyway, Anne and I started to worry as the others didnt arrive for ages. It turned out that Neils bike had conked out. It kept starting and then cutting out. They ended up abandoning it and some kind Tibetan man helped them and gave Neil a lift to the village. He was also helpful in making us aware of cheaper accomodation than the government 'rest house' which had rooms for 1000 ruppee - absolute exotrtion in India and well above a backpackers budget! So - hilariously - 6 of us ended up sharing a room for three people, which entailed Cederic and Audrey sharing a single bed and Shy, Anne me and Neil sharing what amounted to a double - 2 singles next to each other. We actually slept across the width of the bed which gave us marginally more space but we were packed in like sardines and its fair to say Shy was the only one who got any sleep!!!

The next day we were a bit stuck as we didnt know what to do about Neils motorbike and to get it back to the shop would involve a long journey to allow for pushing it up the hills and cruising it slowly in nueteal down the hills. But me Cederic and Shy really wanted to see the Rhotang Pass espeically as it was only 16 k away so the others hung out in the village while we motorored off. This time the day conditions were worse but which I actually find really good fun. Think its much more interesting having difficult terrain although over any long amount of time it would be too stressful as it takes so much concentration to stay upright. My hands were freezing by the time we reached the top, which took 2 hours to ride 16 k!!! At the top we had a Chai and some instant noodles in one of the many tents. There were quite a lot of people milling about - again more yaks, horses, snow machines, and they also had tires for snow sledging. Oh to have more time to do some sledging!!! Joy of joy at the top it was snowing! I have to say I have never motorbiked in the snow before!! Descending the pass back to the village was truly the most demanding. It started raining, and there was really bad traffic. By the time we got back I was pretty exhausted from the intense concentration and cold, and drenched through. I am so grateful we were able to use a cafe kitchen as a changing room stroke sauna. Basically, Audrey brought us anything she could round up that was dry (remember we only had our day packs) and we stripped and Anne and I hung out our clothes on the Indian oven! Audreys waterproof top had thankfully and amazingly kept my top half warm but I had to substitute my jeams for my pajama bottoms which I proceeded to drive in all the way back to Manalali! The oven was an absolute god send because it enabled my shoes and socks to dry out enough to allow me to continue motorbiking back to Manali so we didn't have to stay another night and the extra costs that would entail (a days motorbike rent, accomodation in two different places as we had kept our room in Versisht.) This time it was just me Cederic and Shy as Neil was gonna leave his bike, and the girls had had enough of motorbiking for now! The trip back was also a bit of a faff because Shy had trouble with his bike which was basically falling apart and by the end he couldnt even use his footrests because they were only held up by wires which had come loose. At least an hour of this journey was in the dark. Between the three of us we had only one properly working front light, and one properly working back light! I had absolutely nothing bar a back light that flickered on when I used my back break, and shys worked intermitently and on half beam. It really was a circus but we eventually made it back somehow, by this time it was gone 9.30pm, we hadnt eated, I hadnt slept the night before and the concentration required from driving in the snow, rain and then dark in the space of one day over 5 hours of driving had taken its toll and I was grumpy! The day didnt end there however, upon finally arriving back at my room, it was still locked which meant Anne hadnt got back or had gonbe straight out with the others. It really was the last straw as I was so cold and just wanted a hot bucked bath and good sleep! However there wasnt much I could do about it, and hoped Anne would come back soon. I ended up waiting 40 minutes for her but tried not to mind as when youve had such an eventful 2 days of being cold, whats another 40 minutes?!!

Monday and Tuesday 15th and 16th June

These couple of days were really just recouperating and chilling. We did attempt to go into Old Manali to buy some warm clothes on the Monday (anticipating Leh) but we only got as far as Manali, a restaurant and atm! - before heading back to watch a movie 'almost famous.' The next day we did actually make it into Old Manali (after I changed my flight to the 4th August with the intention of travelling with Anne for the rest of her time here and that being my FINAL date!) also we had to check out of our room as our bus to Leh leaves at 2am - with Anne and Neil. We ended up spending several hours in Old Manali as it was absolutely pouring with rain - it is the wettest day I have experienced in India thus far. I ended up buying a warm wooly hat with attached scarf for 200 ruppees, and a pair of legwarmers for 100 ruppes. I looked at many coats but really want an identical version of the one I am borrowing of Audrey / Cederic as it is a waterproof with removable fleece. We ended up getting back quite late to Vershsit simply because it was raining so heavily we didnt want to venture out to hunt for a rickshaw and the palava of bartering until it was dry. 100 ruppees seem to be the set amount at night though even though it is a lot for India, its a travellers hub so the prices ar fixed higher. We went straight to Audrey and Cederics room where we had earlier left our backpacks, and where poor Audrey had been in bed all day after eating something dodgy in the morning. Due to a misunderstanding, Cederic hadnt actually bought our minibus tickets to Manali as Anne had thought, but it worked out for the best as we used their tickets to give Audrey more time to get better. They would follow the next night. They are a very genrous and good natured couple, they offered for Anne and I to crash in their room for the hour or so before getting on the minibus to....

McLeod Ganj 3rd - 6th June








I probably wouldnt have come here if it wasnt for Anne but Im glad I did! I said Id come here if she came to Leh! Elevation 1770m, and 4km above Dharamsala, Mcleod ganj is the headquarters of the government in exile and the residence of His Holiness, the 14th Dalai Lama. Apparantly its also the main traveller hangout in Himachal Pradesh. Highlights include our panoramic accomodation, chilled vibe, Tibetan influence and arts and crafts and clothes stalls, the tibetan museum, documentaries on Tibet and Burma, and visiting nearby villages. But - it rained a lot!!!

Wednesday 3rd June - McLeod Ganj

Well the train wasnt the best journey in the world - in fact I got about zero hours sleep! A couple of guys were staring at me, I was aware my laptop was under the seat, the conductor came round at 1.15, a lady sat at the end of my bed in the middle of the night, and generally it was hot and I was past the point of tiredness. I was 'woken' by Anne in the morning at 7am in a panic as we were actually at Chatti Bak, the station we were due to alight at. I had set my alarm but the train had made up some of the lost time. We made it off the train (an Indian guy actually helped me with my bag for the first time ever!) but then we had an hour wait for the bus to take us to McLeod Ganj. We made the most of it by eating an Indian breakfast - a grand total of 15 ruppee each for some breakfast and chai! The bus journey was about 4 hours for 85 ruppee with a couple of quick stops and it took us all the way there rather than changing in Daramcot as we had thought. It was quite busy but not so much with westerners - there was a couple of americans, but not together, and a few Japanese who looked very hip, one had a sitar in tow. We were met at the station by a guy and we checked out his hostel which for 250 we decided to look no further. The room is huge, with a big comfy bed, clean, freshly decorated, with a kitchen and bathroom, a balcony with panoramic views. It's a new guest house - they are painting as I speak. But it is the best of both worlds as it is away from the bustle of the centre which can be a bit noisy, but not too far either...just up some very steep steps!!! We were sooo tired but after a shower ventured out for some food, met an American guy Dean who was also on the bus who joined us for grub and a beer (yes you can buy them again here for 120 ruppee!) and went back to his for a drink (he's paying 100 for a single with shared bathroom) and generally wandered around and identified McLeod Ganj as Pushkar in the mountains! Ie we liked it a lot! The views are gorgeous - its a little like how I imagine the alps to be in the summer season without the snow. There are more backpackers here than elsewhere in India, but the most striking feature is the amount of Tibetans here - and apparantly there are a lot of refugees. Anne and I are getting on well and Im really excited about continuing to travel together. India is not like south east asia its not so easy to meet people and not an obvious backpacker circuit. So everything is working out really well. Having an early night. Excited about north india and so nice to not be sweating all the time!

Thought for the day: 'The fire will test each one's work, of what sort it is' - 1 corinthians 3:9-15 Is the work I am doing on this earth of eternal worth? Will it survive the fire? Is acting a selfish vocation? A lot of my concerns over the past two years have been about finding acting work. My focus has been wrong. I'm really challenged at the moment to focus more on the heart. On serving people. Like the verse 'seek first my kingdom and my righteousness and the rest will be given to you.' Its scary to trust God but I know from my personal experience nothing tops it. I want my life to make a difference to others, but I am wondering whether your career need be your calling or whether its the person you are and the attitude you take to it and the impact you have on others. Food for thought. Is my work my ministry. Or is it something different? I know I have a lot of love inside me, and a desire to care for others. How can I do that with my acting without being locked into Theatre in Education? Can I get the balance? Is India the answer?

Thurs 4th June

Well a very deep and comfortable and long sleep and what a delight to wake up to the views of the mountains in our gloriously large room! Its almost a honeymoon suite this place I swear! We both chilled in the morning, even from our bed there are views galore, reading and what not and headed out about 11am to have breakfast where, joy of all joys I had seen wireless the day before and so was extremely excited about uploading some of my backlog of photos! I managed to do Mumbai and Goa, and a few of Hampi but then it started playing up so me and Anne headed to the Tibetan museum which basically gives a history of the country and especially the stories from the Chinese invasion. There are a lot of regugees around this place, and volunteer programmes running too and I am starting to understand why. Basically, China thought they had rights to Tibet, and went and attempted to eradicate their entire culture though torture and destruction leaving many Tibetans fleeing for their lives. Sometimes I wonder on my travels I wonder at the selfishness of it all but it is such an educational experience to learn and to witness first hand the kind of atrocities that go on in the world, and also the amazing ways that people deal with their trials. The Dalai Lama for example is a role model of hope, and non-violence in the midst of such greed and inhumanity, it really is inspirational and I want to learn more about him and other great leaders, and also how their religion is the backdrop to such values. As a Christian I find myself wary of supposedly eastern or new age practices such as yoga or meditation but I am going to try to keep an open mind about such things and try them myself, as long as it isnt in direct contradiction to my own beliefs. Also too I am reading really good books set in India and the whole Indian psyche seems to be joy in the midst of suffering, and the mentality of people who just carry on being positive in situations that really, are so much more tragic than the average westerner will ever experience. I think for me, people are the focus of my learning. Yes it is amazing seeing beautiful places and having amazing experiences but really it is the different cultures, your eyes being opened and being challenged by others.

We also went on this pretty walk through the forest that is marked by multi-coloured prayer flags, its called a prayer walk and was very peaceful. Anne and I were very excited when we bought some gorgeous fresh bread from a bakery and some cheese and beer, and had a picnic on our lovely balcony towards the end of the afternoon. I am loving the mountains and its really nice knowing Anne and I will be travelling together for a while. She and I seem to be quite similar in the sense we are both flexible, and can be spontaneous, both like active things like white water rafting and horse riding and yoga, and shopping and cultural things too so I feel very blessed and feel God has really been looking after me my entire time in India. I am now debating whether to just stay here the rest of the year. I feel happy and settled and it would be interesting to see how the Bollywood thing works out. I may even be able to get some modelling work but if it doesnt work out I could try Kuala Lumpur or Singapore. I need to look at my money situation and see if my tax rebate has come throught too! 700 quid goes a long way out here ;)

Friday 5th June

I had a really bad nights sleep, was really hot and had stuff on my mind that the issues in last nights film kick-started. I guess one of them was when the protagonist 'Milk' was so passionate about his career and running for another election that his partner walked out on him and he had to accept it as something that had to give for a higher purpose. It got me thinking about stuff and exactly what it is I want out of life and what my drive and passion is and what Im living for every day. This guy stood for something, and he fought against the odds and with much rejection and losing many an election until he saw change and made a difference to human lives with massive repurcussions. Ultimately he paid for it with his own life but his legacy remained. I guess his work wasnt burned in the fire it had long term conseuences. Sometimes I think God wants me to make big sacrifices but I'm not sure exactly what for. Thus blog is starting to be more about my own personal reflections than the places I have visted and a lot of it is very personal and also highly interconnected with my faith, and I am finding it hard to judge just how much I should publish for others to read and how much to keep private. The problem is I cant really seperate my feelings and reflections from the places I find myself each day and the people I meet and what I have been doing, Also, for example I am reading books since I have been in India that are fairly philosophical or just inspiriational like the French priest who went and lived amongst the poor in the slums of Calcutta and refused to be given special treatment as a while man even when dying from Cholera.His relfections of suffering are also very interesting, as he seeks justification for its abundance in the poverty of the slums, whilst simultaneously knowing the love of God. It's a timeless paradox, and one that I think is a stumbling block to many who can't believe there can be a good God with so much suffering in the world. Or the documentaries I am watching about Tibet and later Burma, and the atrocities countries and individuals can inflict on others. These travels are not just about having experiences or self indulgence, even though I know I am incredibly privaledged to be here and have this 'time out' to assess my life. I know for me it is now about finding happiness within myself, not relying on anyone or anything to provide that for me, and that means rising above the highs and the lows, the homesickness and the lack of friends around me. At its essence, being in a foreign place with alien culture and the unpredictablity and lack of home comforts around me, its just about me and God and sometimes thats hard when you want a human cuddle! But I also sense it is a time of great growth and self development which will lay foundations for future years. Its exciting.

Went by myself to Mandala's cafe where I uploaded the rest of my Hampi photos although I think my computer can only cope with so much as it gets hot or tired and cant cope after about 70 photos! Feel quite agitated today and Im not sure why. If Anne wasn't feeling feverish I would probably check out this morning and get on a bus tonight. I feel time to move on. We chilled for a bit on the balcony, and headed up to 'Seven Hill' guest hosue to meet Canadian Dale and have a drink, before walking to Bhagsu 2km away, and the waterfall which was a nice walk even though with the water levels being so low it was a pathetic trickle rather than a majestic flow!!! The town was a lovely bohemian place though, and even though and I didn't buy anything it was nice to just wander about and look in the clothes shops and jewellery shops. We were gonna walk further up but it started - raining!!! First time in India!!! So we ducked into a hip cafe and I bought the most delicious and mahousive veg burger with chips and salad. I was even glad it rained because otherwise I wouldn't have experienced such a culinary delight! Perhaps the rain made me a bit homesick, oh the irony, plus I had messaged my two sisters and dad on facebook earlier and Ro was asking me about coming home so maybe it was just that contact that got me a bit whatever the word is!!!

Anyway, we booked our bus tomorrow and I had a bit of a purging cry and pray and wrote a bit and feel better now. Gonna head out to watch some documentaries people took illegally and with hidden cameras in Tibet and Burma.

Info: The venue, L.I.T. stands for Learning and Ideas for Tibet. Its a non profit organisation that seeks to educate and communicate all aspects of Tibetan culture in order for it to remain alive despite Chinas occupation of the region. Location: off Jobigara Rd, 50 metres past the Japanese Restaurant, down the steps from the Ahask guesthouse, near Hope centre. They also have a daily discussion at 2pm. Contact: learningandideasfortibet@gmail.com The board members are unpaid skilled volunteers and members of Gu Chu Sum, the ex-political prisoner association.

Thought for the day: Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one wins the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize. Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last, but we do it to get the crown that will last forever. Therefore, I do not run like a man running aimlessly.... 1 Corinthians 9 : 24-26

Sat 6th June

I slept better last night (boy will I miss this bed with its cozy covers) but think I have a little of what Anne has got as feel washed out and have sore eyes and runny nose!! Feeling peckish, I got up to walk up the 235 steps for a cinemon roll (40 ruppees) and melon juice (15 ruppess) in a lovely little place on post office road where I later also swapped a book for the sequal to 'The Kite Runner' to later find 40 pages missing! Going back to our hotel, I got back into bed and failing to read with weary eyes, I dozed until nearly midday when we were forced to get up and dressed to check out. Hesitantly leaving our bags in reception (Im always paranoid about my baby aka this netbook) I ventured up the 235 steps for the second time today realising that the third and final time would be carrying our heavy backpacks! We went to the Italian place where Anna had breakfast and I had joy of joys a waffle with bananas and ice cream yum tum!! (50 ruppees) and cappucinno (35 ruppees). Well, I couldnt let Anne eat alone could I now?! We were both feeling groggy and coudl have been quite contect to stay in that chilled place listenin to music and reading our books but come 2 oclock we thought we should do something and went to get a rickshaw to Dharamcot. Mcleod Ganj is supposedly the second most rainy spot in the whole of India (what am I doing here - ANNE!) and true to form, the clouds which had greeted us upon venturning outside, opened. And did so intermiteanl for the rest of the afternoon to the degree we really couldnt consider trekking to the waterfall as planned, and in her feverish state Anne wasnt up for a 4 hour round trek and feeling tired neither was I. So we wandered into the village and got chatting to a couple of locals under their shelter, and then after a short time of refuge in a shed (we're classy we are) went to eat (again!) in a restaraunt (well - what else are you supposed to do in a downpour?!). This time I had a veg korma and rice for 90 ruppees. It was quite nice though, as we were in the warm and dry - at last! - and played a game of chess which blimey I havnt played since I was a child. And I won. Is always good to know I have some brain cells left...

I found a masseur for a bargain 300 ruppees and had a lovely chat about christian things when I discovered she was of the same faith. She runs an orphanage in Varanasi and I said Id email her if I was passing though and had some time to volunteer. Its hard for me to make promises as I dont know yet when Im going home and hence where I will have the time to visit. but Varanasi is the spiritual heart of India, and to volunteer at a christian led orgphanage would combine 2 things I am passionate about so we'll see.

I bumped into Dale again who had relocated as Dot is a bit less busy and noisy than McLeod Ganj. After a quick Chai he kindly came with me back down to Mcleod Ganj to help us with our bags up the mammoth steps and further to the bus stop. Back in Mcleod Ganj I managed to upload about 50 photos but it was very slow and I didnt get to finish Udaipur or to annotate them. Im now on the overnight bus, and judging by the bumps Im not sure how much sleep ill get tonight but is good to be in the warm again. I dont entirely trust the drivers as one wass trying to charge extra to put bags in the hold which I refused. So ive got it near me on the bus.

Ever since I watch the documentaries last night I have been thinking about the plight of the Tibetan people and especially the whole idea of non-violent resistance so sgrongly advocated by the Dalai Lama who i have so much admiration for. The lady who produced the documentary commented that she fears the so called non violent resistance will, in the end, be perceieved as surrender. Its a fair point. But that assumes non-violence is passive and also assumes defeat. It is my prayer that this peaceful course of resistance will in the end result in victory and send a message to the world that voilence and war is not the only way. It is a powerful testiment to hope, faith and love, as the Dalai Lama even calls for compassion for the enemy. But, after 50 years of oppression. will there be a happy ending? A whole generation are already being born into Chinese 'rule' and are struggling with thier traditional language were everything is so strictly controlled by the Chinese and all vestiges of their cultural identity are being stripped away or forcibly removed through fear, tortuer and imprisoment. It is tragic and it is wrong oh so wrong. The countrys rich and natrual resouces are being stolen from them. And the rest of the world just stands by.

I am feeling physically sick this bus is like alton towers.

Thought for the day: 'It doesnt take millions of dollars to investigate ultimate reality. It takes a willingness to submit to a force greater than intellect - Hank Sprager'

Jaipur 31st May - 2nd June







Photos: Views from Amber fort, the famous 'Raj Mandir' Cinema, a random horse with painted toenails!, a bazaar, and Anne and I outside Jaipur: 'the pink city'. Why does it download my photos backwards?!

Jaipur - 1st June first full day

Jaipur is a larger city than I have been accustomed to of late (2.63 million) and as far as I was concered was unwelcomingly chaotic and congested - and hot!!. However, despite the seemingly greater humidity and lots of annoying attention from the male species, we still had some fun including watching a half english, half-hindi film at the famous Raj Mandir cinema, going to a fair where we were the only white people and seeing some awesome stunts, the Jantar Mantar observatory, and visiting the impressive Amber Fort out of town.

Accomodation; Paradise Hotel, next to Evergreen (in Lonely Planet.) 200 ruppee for a room although we were lucky - minimum is 250. Rooms at evergreen were 300 but we still went there to eat.

By the time we checked in last night it was nearly 11 o'clock. I had a good sleep in a room with a fan that worked, and a nice film mattrress, but the past few days in the heat and not sleeping well has taken its toll, I do feel very tired. We had a nice western breakfast at Evergreen - 70 ruppee and we wandered via checking out films at the cinema enroute to the old city, or otherwise known as the 'pink city'. We bumped into a couple of Argentinian guys who are 18 months into their travels. They helped us avoid a little of the copious amounts of attention Anna and I recieved from 'helpful' and 'friendly' indian guys all wanting to also have 'conversations' to improve their english. We really wern't in the mood, being very tired and it being very very, very hot!

My first impressions of this place are - I dont like it! - but I do recognise I have been totally spoilt by being to three delciously gorgeous smaller towns in a row - Hampi, Udaipur, and Pushkar - all of which I absolutely loved. I never like cities as much anyway, personal preference. The pink buildings were I suppose something a little different but the madness of the traffic and the hassle sort of overshadowed it. The unbearable heat was also a factor in Anne and I mutually deciding to abandon our seperate previous plans and rather continue travelling together, heading North to the coolness of the moutnains and the fun of adventure sports!! I really like Anne, I think she is a genuine person, there is something very sweet and gentle about her that I feel a little protective of and already have affection for her. I also recognise qualities in her that are in me. The only problem sometimes is her lack of understanding (being German) of some of the words or phrases I use although generally her English is very good. I'm so pleased to be with another female that I genuinly like and have things in common with, it is sooo much simpler than the complications of guys! Its funny that both the girls I have got close to on this trip have been German, and I think I was a little prejudice towards germans before. I miss Ellie actually, and the whole crowd from Vietnam, and although being with Nathan had good moments in a different way, part of me wishes I had spent more time with my friends and really made the most of it because it was such a good bunch of people and I think I took it for granted a bit and I do now miss them a lot and know we will never meet in that way again, although I will always have fab memories like the music festival, sand dunes, and night out in Hoi An amongst others.

One cool place we went to in Jaipur was called 'Jantar Mantar' a wonderful if slightly bizarre, Alice In Wonderland like scientific observatory, began by Jai Singh 1728. We grabbed a couple of other westeners and got a guide for 150 ruppee (150 entrance fee) which as the Lonely Planet promised did indeed provide fascinating facts into the mammoth instruments that measured signs of the zodiac and included a huge 27 metres high sundial, accurate to 2 seconds. They really were very impressive. But it was oh, so hot!!! I filled my water bottle and just soaked my hair to cool down.

We wandered around the bazaars and bought some bindis, which are little spots you stick onto your forehead (although officially wearing one means we're married but who cares!) and got seduced by air conditioning and a Chai into a shop where I bought two gorgeous and bright cushion covers. I paid 100 each and later found some identical ones for 25 ruppee!! Gutted!! Sometimes the cheapness of items works against you because you dont want to rip off the shop and you assume things are more expensive than they are, especially if they have like hand embroidery, But labour is nothing In India. You dont pay for labour here. It got a bit much though, every single shop we walked past were trying to get us inside and you feel annoyed and frustrated you have to explain why or why not you want ot buy something with your own money on your own holiday. Then they force you to be rude by their persistance and then you feel bad and you have somehow given westeners a bad name. You cant win!!! Individually you can cope with it, but it is a completel barrage and feels quite violating because you simply cant just walk along in silence or just chatting to your friend or taking time out. Absolutely without doubt you will be questioned and someone will be there to pester you. It is a lot worse than Vietnam. But I guess Ive had a lot of practice and trying to keep my humour! They also don't realise you are more likely to a) go into their shop b) browse and c) buy something if they dont lay on such pressure!

Speaking of which, I did go into a rather nice shop full of colourful and dare I say much more expensive sari's where I tried on another gorgeous sari. Im not sure if I should have bought my other one. But I couldnt have afforded this one anyway it was 4000 ruppees! But I was kind of in heaven. Some sari's are just so beautiful and I find myself looking much more at the clothes Indian women are wearing since I am interested in wearing one myself to my party.

We bought a cinema ticket to watch 8 x 10 for 70 ruppee, the mid range 'emerald' seats. It was a strange mix of English and Hindi, so half the fun was trying to follow the story in the Hindi parts by the cinematography and facial expressions, action etc. It was not traditional bollywood but had a proper hollywood storyline of a guy with special powers trying to identify his fathers killer. It was actually quite good, and high quality and used some great locations in south africa amongst others, although missing several of the explanations as the story unfolded with more bits of evidence or insights, some of it admittedly went over my head!!! The cinema building 'Raj Mandir' was a sight to behold - apparantly it is the 'icon' of Jaipur, and the most famous Hindi cinema in the whole of India. I managed to get a couple of pics before being told off...! It was such a treat doing something familiarly western in an obviously indian environement - architecturally and culturally. For example, it was asian in design, although classy in contrast to the litter lined streets. But it was also common for kids to cry, people to chat, phones to go off at pivotal points in the film, and people to talk on them unashamedly loudly. To my suprise, no one seemed to mind! It was kind of like having the TV on at home with people carrying on around it, albeit on a mahousive screen! And it was great getting popcorn for only 20 ruppees! I was sitting there just thinking how lucky I am to be in India and how much I love it here and how I may stay longer after all!! Especially as Anne and I seem to be both up for doing things like treks and white water rafting etc. I dont feel unsafe here but you need a bit of solidarity and support amongst the staring and male attention. It just is nicer I guess.

We then wandered up the road (after our second visit to macdonalds in the sam day he he) and paid 10 ruppess to get into the fair ground we had seen earlier in the day, and we felt like big kids, getting all excited! Predictably, we were an attraction in our own right, people say hello left right and centre and if I get asked one more time where Im from I think I will scream!!!! Speaking of which, I ended up on a ride with an Indian girl who really did scream a lot but it was very amusing especially as to me the ride was a lot more tame than the ones found in England.

One amazing 'show' was a circular dome, where 2 motorbikes and 2 cars wizzed around, literally on their sides up almost vertical walls. This was built up to by one motorbike to begin with, then another who did no hands, swerving side to side just using the motions of his body and no steering, and then a car, and the guys even poked their bodies out the windows. It really was amazing and had I not been videoing it on my camera I would have had one had firmly clapped over my mouth!

One very persistent rickshaw driver wore us down once we had left, and we hopped in for a ridiculous 5 ruppee which he didnt even collect at the end. Meeting genuinly nice people sometimes makes all the others worthwhile!

One funny incident back at the hotel and after saying hi to Ducky who had just arrived from Pushkar, was a very bizarre sound that sounded like a goat in the hotel reception. I inquisitvely opened my door and ventured out, and indeed it was, a goat just outside the hotel door, bleating away and as soon as it saw me it charged! I ran back to my room and slammed the door! It must have been on drugs or something!! Very tired ZZZZzzzzzzzz....

I never walk alone, christ walks beside me; he is the dearest friend ive ever known.; with such a friend to comfort and to guide me, I never, no I never walk alone.

Tuesday 2nd June

I really am having the time of my life. I want to make every second last. And thats even on a day like today where its so hot its uncomfortable and makes you too lethargic to do anything. I am on a train to Delhi, then overnight to a place called Mcleod Gange. I am very very tired but just keep realising how fortunate I am to be here and how happy I am experiencing other cultues. I think travelling is important to me and I want to give it a high priority. I will have these memories for ever. I never want it to end now I am feeling myself again.

I woke up this morning and we dragged ourselves out of bed to sort our tickets 9ish. I have committed to going north with Anne now, we just have to find a way! With Dukcy in tow, we got a rickshaw and went via the train station to book ticket, to Amber Fort-Palace, 11k north of town, and the ancient capital of Jaipur state. The walls surrounding it are an astounding 14 Km long and it is quite spectacular set amongst the hills. Again though, the heat was just too much.We really should have gone early morning or evening. But it was still a worthwhile trip and we made our way to the station for a 4.35 train that typically didn't end up leaving 'til 6pm! I can't tell you how much I am looking forward to cooler temperatures, like really!!! It has just got to the point of being unbearable to me. But everything works out for the best as I am very happy about continuing to travel with Anne and going to Manali!!!! Agra and Varanasi may be more enjoyable with a bit of monsoon making things less humid. Bring it on!!!!!

Tuesday, 23 June 2009

Pushkar, Rajastan













Friday 29th May

Pushkar: A small town (15,000) full of charm and colourful (& cheap) clothes, and jewellery shops a plenty. (Yesss!!!) A pilgrimage destination, with one of the worlds few Brahama temples, and rows of sacred ghats around a lake, amongst which Gandhi's ashes were scattered. Booze amongst other random things like eggs is prohibited but Anna and I had a sneaky beer on our camel trek and night in the desert. Other highlights include having a jewellery making lesson and producing a ring with 'Carla' written in Hindi, sleeping in the sand dunes, donning my bikini in a guest house pool, blissfully wandering about and shopping, and just hanging with a good crowd of people. Oh, and the view from the Savitri temple high on the hill. I loved this place so much.

Accomodation: Pink Floyd guest house. 100 ruppee single room. doubles 200 ruppee. In hindsight: Nearby Naraya Palace has a swimming pool! Hotel Om also looked good and similar prices for both.

Yet another incredible day!! Will this never end?!I I hope not!! The bus ride was, admitedly bloody awful! I hit air every time we went over a bump which was like, er, a lot! Added to that, despite it being SLEEPER bus, at every conceievable stop it was deemed appropriate for the street hawkers selling their Chai (Indian tea) or what not, to come and bellow so loud it would have taken a miracle not to wake up the whole of Rajastan. I think most people, the locals, those in the know, just knew there was sods chance of actually getting sleep on this bus and so took every opportunity to stretch their legs. However me, being a gimp kept optimistically hoping I would eventually drop off. No chance, especially with the loud Hindi music they favoured us with every time the bus took a break. But I'd booked a sleeper damn it and I was determined to spend some time in the land of nod! However, in the back of my mind was Annas exerience of Indian men on overnight transport and I think I was worried about being groped so that probably didnt help. However I had no problems in that department thank goodness.

Once in Ajmer, we then had to trek for over a kilometre with our heavy bags at about 5.30 am as the bus didnt stop at the, yeah bus stop...! Probably another way of giving the rickshaw drivers more dosh. Personally I would have got a rickshaw but Ducky and Alaina are on even tighter budgets than me! Once there, we got a bus to Pushkar for 9 ruppees, and arrived in Pushkar. I really wanted to stay in a hotel with a pool but the others were set on Pink Floyd and weighing up the options it did have the coolest (temperature wise) rooms and after 3 nights of not good sleep, I decided in the end to join them there. Got a room for 100 ruppee. Everyone crashed out for a few hours in the morning but I didnt sleep as was kept awake by a noisy fan so eventually admitted defeat and changed rooms, slightly upgraded (meaning I now have a window, although still not to the outside!!)

I had already had an early breakfast before my attempted kip, and when I woke up the girls were still sleeping and Josh, a guy we had met on the bus, had gone out so I went up to the roof restaurant and got chatting to a couple of kiwi guys Mat and Hamish I arranged to meet later that evening to walk up the hill to see the sunset.

By the time I finished the girls were awake and I headed out with Alaina to the wonderful shops selling amazing jewellery and clothing. I am gonna spend a relative forture here its just so amazing and gorgeous bright coloured clothes you just wouldnt find in England. Im gonna stock up! Spent a happy few hours, Pushkar is such a cool place! ! also found a jewellery shop with an honest guy I bought a couple of rings off (280 for smaller one, 535 for larger one) and then had a jewellery making lesson where I made myself a ring with my name in Hindi, to commemorate me time in India which is increasingly becoming more and more special to me. South east asia pales in comparison although I obviously had a wonderful time there too but Im glad I did it this way round, its like India is the climax of my travels. I am content in company or by myself and am loving every second. The lesson and silver cost 300 ruppees and Im gonna make my Granma a necklace or something for her birthday present. It was hard work though, I had to draw the hindi letters of my name on silver, and then saw it out which took quite a long time and actually hurt the muscles in my hand and back! Guess just muscle groups I am not used to exerting. He helped me on the harder bits and as I was running out of time before I met my friends, helped me in other parts just to quicken up the process. I have so much respect for jewellery makers, it is so skilled and time consuming. Patience is not one of my strong points, ha ha, but it is a satisfying process. However, I had trouble focusing, I know Im a bit long sighted but it normally doesnt effect me in day to day things. I would like to learn more jewellery making techniques, maybe its something I could do alongside my acting..

Met the guys, Hamish and Matthew and another called Christian, and walked up the hill to the high temple which took about an hour, accompanied by a small kid, to a beautiful sunset which we watched while drinking Chai and listening to chilled out Hindi music. I have a feeling of contentment and happiness here. I wish I was like this all the time and my depressive patches didnt always interfere. I read a book where the guy claimed in his own life a good period is always followed by a low period and vice versa. I think this may well be true. He copes with it by not getting too caught up in the extremes of either. But Im not sure I totally agree. The thing is when I feel low I feel really low and almost feel whats the point in living. But I wouldn't want to go without my highs because I feel on top of the world. Im just gonna make the most of it anyway and hope it lasts til I go home. Im starting to feel Im actually living an alternative reality. Travelling is now my norm, and what a wonderful life! It cant last forever though. I need to earn some dosh too! However I am seriously considering spending my 30th out here but am not gonna stress about it, and am not gonna make any decisions until nearer the time. I wouldn't extend it by too much. Maybe until the end of July which means a 6 month travelling which is a pretty significant length - esp considering it was only meant to be 2 months booked 3 weeks in advance! Then spend August in Ciren and move London in Sept. And throw my Indian party!!! Am already excited!!

Anna and I booked our camel trek and booked tickets to Jaipur - she has decided to skip Jophur which is nice to spend a bit more time with her and travel to the next place together.

Ate in a street stall - veg thali with the guys. Am feeling very tired but didnt sleep last night so no wonder! Will have to get them to turn the TV down it is blaring out and Im right by the common area!

Thanks God for another amazing day. 'His mercies are new every morning, His mercies are new every day.'

Saturday 30th May
Sunday 31st May
Pushkar and camel safari

Well, the electricity cut out as I was trying to get to sleep last night, which added to the baby wailing, dog barking, women schrieking and TV blaring was kinda typical!! My right arm was, I know I know Im a right wimp, actually throbbing in pain from the silver sawing motions of my jewellery making exploits yesterday! It sounds crazy but you kinda use muscles you never knew you had, and the concentration required to not cut off my own thumb or forefinger, made me quite tense..!

Anyway, with Alaina and Anne in tow, I met the guys (Hamish and Matt) early at Naraya Palace and headed out to the Ghats, the idea being before it got too hot and to catch the people washing. Unfortunately many of the ghats were not in action due to the low or non-existant water levels, and it was a shame the lake wasn't in full flow as one could imagine how beautiful it would be, as in Udaipur. There were Indians washing in the Holy water, but photographs were strictly prohibited even though I managed to get a sneaky one from a superior vantage point later. We had some old Indian guy come and rabbit away at us for a while but I can honestly say I didnt understand a word of it! I caught something along the lines of 'your country, my country; which he liked to repeat a lot through his half set of teeth, but that was about it. I declined the rose petals offered a-plenty, but Anne took some and went to sprinkle them on the water while reciting a hindi prayer. Obviously being a Christian stops me following the sort of worshipful actions of HIndus but it does interest me. Apparantly to be blessed by a guru, and to say the names of family relatives you want blessed costs 150 ruppee each. Kind of exploitative if you ask me, as prayers should be free...!

We had a nice lunch at some rooftop cafe 'Sanjays' and then I happily bartered for my silk dress, cotton dress and mental silk ali baba's getting them for 150, 250 and 250 respectively. He wanted 850 originally and his assistant wouldnt go below 800 or so, but having gone to some other shops I knew what clothing went for and bartered hard, the guy said I was 'strong women'!!

I spent a lovely relaxing afternoon at the pool at Narayan Palace which I could have kicked myself for not booking myself into. Its kind of like a holiday resort and so nice to be back in the old bikini espeically in such extreme heat. There was a whole crowd of westerners there and fun to just chat, sunbathe, laze in the hammock and read my book.

Anna and I set off on our safari around 5, ali baba pants and head scarves galore. Yes, we wanted to look the part trekking into the sunset and spending a romantic night under the stars with no less than three males, at least two big and strong enough to lift two fully grown adults at once and our bags! But alas, the muscles were substituted by lanky legs, a distainful face, loooong neck, and, more worryingly, a serious spinal defect we were informed was a 'hump', The fun began straight away, after the obligatroy 'before any fatal injuries or sore bottom' photographs, when we sat astride the camel (bigger than I imagined?!) and in some sort of gangly rocking motion, the creature reluctantly and awkwardly jolted itself upwards one end at a time with me clinging on for dear life. Ok, I know this sounds like an exxageration, but it was scary being forced to such extreme angles in the ascension of one half of the creatures legs, and it wouldnt take an awful lot to have plopped to the ground! On the camel was only slightly reminiscent of any childhood memories I had of getting on the back of a horse. For a start, it was a lot higher. Secondly, my flip flopped feet were stuck at an odd angle into a rope which acted as stirrups. Thirdly - and this was of the utmost concern - I didnt have anything to actually hold on to! Some pathetic excuse of a handle was protruding out of the 'saddle' ha ha in front of me, but it didn't fit one hand on, much less two. But I was on. Feat number one completed. Now to number 2. The otherwise simple act of 'walking' was itself a challenge, namely because my personal walking style involves moving in the forward trajectory greater than the upward one, which on a camel is apparantly in reverse ie I hit air every time the creatire moved forward. and I found I was little more confortable gripping slightly with my heels. The guide had his bit of fun when the camel started trotting (did you know they trotted?!) which at first was met by strong objections from yours truly. He didnt push it. He wanted his tip.

I found the only way to sort of get into the swing of it, excuse the pun, was to join in the groovy hip thrusting action in simulation of the guide leading on the camel in front of me, with Anna on the front. Variations ensued including the camel stumbling (solution: panic and pray) ascending a hill (hold on tighter and pray) or decending (lean back and pray.) I have never put so much faith in an animal before! As we bumped along, I warily eyed the rocks mingled in with the sand and planned my path and James Bond style fall and roll, should the worst happen...

We trekked for about 2 hours, with a stop to buy some beer which would be the first Ive had since Goa. Only two weeks I know, but it seems like a lifetime ;)

When we arrived, it was still light and Anna I an went of a little walk, on our own legs across the dunes. We managed to get, well frankly lost on the way back and got a little worried especially when we saw unfamiliar animal tracks and the sounds of what could realistically be wild dogs (aughh! I havnt had rabies jab!), but with the aid of my trusty torch (thank goodness I remembered to buy new batteries earlier today) we did eventually return to civilisation in the form of a camp fire. We chatted away while the guys prepared food - a welcome sight, as Anna observed as its always the women here who do domestic chores while the men do not a lot! Some gypsy musician came and played a couple of Rajastan songs after which I tried the instrument myself but managed to sqeak rather than play it. Its a single stringed instrument similar to a violin in that the left hand fingers position on the string varies the musical pitch, and the right hand holds and moves the bow across it.

Drama threatened when we noticed the clouds rolling in, and the wind picking up. But (fortunately as we had no cover) it passed, and sprawled out on our makeshift bed, and trying to push aside the fact there were ants crawling around me (rather large ones as it happens) I drifted off into a fairly comfortable sleep. It got cold in the night and we retrieved the cover we had been using as a pillow. We got woken up at 6.30 am which I wasnt happy about! Had a gorgeous and rather large breakfast, before making a much more direct journey back home. So direct and fast (we did a lot of trotting and I almost enjoyed it!) I had to mention to him only 30 minutes had passed and it was supposed to be 1 1/2 - 2 hours of trekking. He huffily turned back into the dunes and we eventually got just over and hour out of him, but it was Ok as much more than that and your bum starts getting too numb anyhow!

We saw the famous Brahma temple, and I got my legs and armpits waxed (I know it doesnt seem newsworthy but it is, it really really is!!!!) and attempted to draw out some money but no notes we dispersed. Most excitingly I got my ring I made 2 days ago re-sized as it was a bit tight (as it was a soft silver he simply banged it a bit with a hammer to stretch it), and my ring I bought in New York mended. I gave him 20 ruppee so am happy.

Time to return to the lovely pool and vegetate for a couple of hours before getting the bus. Ducky and Alaina have decided to do the camel trek tonight after all, with the 2 guys that were gonna do it with us but couldnt get their arses together to book the ticket yesterday! The lure of hammocks! We should be seeing Ducky tomorrow night in Jaipur but it was 'bye to Alaina (kiwi) as after a bit of a rocky start, I did enjoy spending time with her and she was fun to be around so will miss her.

Our bus left nearly an hour late and it was a bit frustrating and very hot but, this is India. On to Jaipur...